To Be Seen Alone: A Brief Meditation on Art, Sex, Truth and Surprise

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Art delivers the truth out of us.

That’s why we fear it.

That’s why we crave it.

Something about the way creation has to come about that demands surrender, demands not just a letting go but a not-holding-back.


In that you are never alone when you are creating art. It’s not a thing you can pull off singly.

Ever tried to surprise yourself?  Tickle yourself?

Can’t do it.

Ever been surprised by something you created? Looked back on it and said, Wow, that’s good, where did that come from?

Not alone.

It’s a wild road, art. But what would we do without it? Wither, dry up, break into crumbs?

To be creative is to seek something. To seek a glance, a dance with the most beautiful, exotic creature in the room. To dare to believe that you are even meant to make love to it.

To stroke, to feel, to touch; to sense and temper the heightening and the turning toward or away.

To guide, to be guided.

To command, to be commanded.

Creativity opens you so thoroughly as to slice you up the middle and down the back and to beckon you and finger you into play.

You are not alone.

You are seeing something as it mysteriously forms – and you get the muted but fixed sense that you, too, are being seen.

Can the making of our art be so powerful that we at times become afraid of it?  So that because we desire to be seen but we also fear it, we hide from delivering on our truest art; we dismiss it, we shackle it off and forbid ourselves from it.

Art, spirituality, sexuality. Pleasure, exploration, glory.

All of these: invitations, offerings, chances to undress. Nakedness, teasing, seeing.

Seeing so fully it yields total exposure and in doing so, total freedom. Past uncomfortable. Way past shy, past coy, well beyond simple gratuitous uncovering.

Seeing that is rather an eager readiness, an acceptance of our innate desire, our heavy, encompassing, disarming need to be whole. To be recognized by ourselves as whole.

No one, when creating art – not even the loneliest person in the world – is really alone.

Is it not erotic to muse on the creative process of giving ourselves over to something else?

Is it not sensual to write about a connection to something that occupies, stimulates, beckons, presses upon, pulls at, makes ecstatic and delicious friction with your being?

When I talk about art, about writing, about creativity, I’m not talking about my experience alone. There’s something there with me.

There is an exchange. The closest thing to Truth I’ve ever known is when that exchange is full and complete. Honest in the first degree.

In it, there is surprise. There is a release and a satisfaction you can’t bring about by yourself. You cannot surprise yourself because even if you try, you can’t react. You can’t feel surprise alone.

Something has to act on you, something has to want you to join in.

Something has to invite you to feel something. Something has to delight in seeing you.

There’s something about art that makes telling being the truth alluring, toothsome, sexy.



That’s why we fear it.

That’s why we love it.

Maybe, that’s why we need it.

And it needs us.


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28 thoughts on “To Be Seen Alone: A Brief Meditation on Art, Sex, Truth and Surprise

  1. Tiffany

    I love this! Yes…I have looked back sooo many times and thought…How did I do that? Made me laugh. It is so far and few between but I do adore that feeling when I sit and my logical mind shuts off, the world melts away and it’s just me. Well, me and who ever has come to guide me. Yes, it is magical. It flows, like ocean waves so effortlessly. I envision these little bits of light, energy really, that is released through the hands and onto what ever our canvas is. A part of us laid out for all to see. It’s so beautiful. Thank you for this post. I have been wanting to get back into painting for some time now and always..too…busy…sigh… Soon. :)

    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Hello, hello, Tiffany! Such a beautiful name! Lovely, dear friend.

      I am so thrilled this resonated for you and I love how you describe that feeling of guidance as “magical” and “like ocean waves” – that is exquisite, isn’t it? I totally get you. It’s a sacred, secret place indeed. What a gift, right.

      Your words here are so beautiful, friend: “little bits of light, energy really, that is released through the hands” – Ah! I freaking want to scream – YES! ;) Yes, yes, yes. YES.

      I know you are so busy with your creative, exceptional things, my love. And I am so very, very grateful for your presence here. Thank you, as always, for bringing that glimmer of light and spirit that only you can bring.

      Soon, soon. I can totally feel your painting coming . . . what kind of painting do you do?

      Peace and joy, dear one, stay amazing.


  2. Brad

    wonderful musings on the sacred dance of creating with spirit. Your way is much more fun than my way of writing. :) I felt that passion and connection more with photography. Thanks Allison.

    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Hello dear Brad,

      Thank you so much for reading and leaving such an awesome comment, I love seeing you here.

      So glad you enjoyed this piece. How very fascinating that you felt (feel) that intimacy with photography. That is fantastic. What a gift indeed to have a passion and follow it, play with it.

      Thank you for your spirit and your light, my good friend. ;)

      Peace, always,


  3. Rob

    Wonderful, Allison. As a musician, it’s the holy grail to have all of these elements work within a song. But it can’t be contrived, it has to ‘happen’. I think that is where the success of any artistic endeavor rests – between creating and being willing to be created.

    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Hello dear Rob,

      Thank you so much for your beautiful comment. I love that you can appreciate this as a musician, I can totally see how that must be a dance, a love, an expression of co-creation. It truly blows me away what you incredible musicians can do to transport us into a sacred space.

      This right here is GOLD: “I think that is where the success of any artistic endeavor rests – between creating and being willing to be created.” Exquisite.

      Thank you for your artistic works, we are so much richer for them. ;)

      Blessings and light,


  4. Erika

    This is the most wonderful and profound post I have read. Amazing, Allison! I truly feel what you write about. Whenever I am working on my songs, sing, writing lyrics, poems or my posts I feel this inner flame taking over. And the passion for what I am doing is flowing through and out of me. It definitely is ecstatic. The most wonderful creation always emerges from a deep state of passion. Because in passion we express what we are uncovered. Your post is the best example!

    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Beautiful, beautiful friend,

      Thank you. From the bottom of my heart and soul, thank you for your incredible words and most for your brilliant spirit behind them. I know you truly feel the glory of creating, I absolutely know you do. It comes through in all you share so generously. You have so much talent and so many gifts, writing, inspiring, bringing warmth and light and creativity into the world through all of the diverse work you do. Bless you, beloved.

      You are such an angel, Erika! I thank you for your kindness and for all you do.

      Stay incredible. ;)


  5. Meg Evans

    Allison, I love how you crossed off “telling” and made that phrase “being the truth.” You’re so right — if we’re not feeling it and being it, then we’re not fully telling it. And yes, that’s sexy. :)

    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Hey Meg,

      Have I told you lately how absolutely stellar and beautiful you are?! THANKYOU, friend.

      Thank you for reading and for your thoughts. I so dig your style! Funny, isn’t it – how one word exchanged for another really does make a difference. So very cool that you tuned in to that.

      Rock on, love! ;)

  6. Scott L Vannatter

    I am a writer. I have published some short stories and an anthology. It was more for me than for anything else. This is my “art”. And, yes, I have looked at stories or sections of stories (or my poetry) and said, “Where did that come from?”
    I understand. Thank you for saying it so well.

    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Dear Scott,

      Thank you so much for your comment – it is so inspiring to hear that you, too, have experienced the beautiful surprise. I very much appreciate that you shared this with me. It’s wild how art connects us to ourselves and to one another even as we share how it moves through us.

      So much of the magic is hard to put into words – haha, but we writers can try at least, right?

      There’s so much joy in the trying of the writing.

      Wishing you much adventure and light,


  7. Noelle

    Great analogy to make. Yes, sensual, but then didn’t many of the great mystics also make this association. That in our Western culture we have cut ourselves off from the sensual aspects of the creative process and limited it to procreation and sex and by doing so, withdrawn the creative aspects within our sexuality and the sexuality that is within our creative projects. Great piece.

    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Dear, dear Noelle,

      How incredibly right you are! In fact, you have picked up on something I actually removed from the draft of this piece – that we have degraded sex to body parts and I can’t help but wonder if that’s because it makes it a way to control instead of express.

      For if we were to treasure and honor the full glory of our full sexuality in art and in our creations, it would be extremely and exquisitely powerful indeed. It takes an awakened spirit and a gentle soul to allow such force to move through without judgment and without hiding it, don’t you think?

      You say it perfectly: “withdrawn the creative aspects within our sexuality and the sexuality that is within our creative projects.” What a shame and a loss to rip our creativity up into bits.

      Thank you, my friend, for your thoughts and light, always.

  8. Rajagopal

    Yet another enlightening input on the creative process. Certainly creativity does not happen in a vacuum. A well-known painter quipped that it is all about a long bout of relaxation with his muses and thereafter it just happens magically by his putting a splash of paint on the canvas that gradually turns into a brilliant visual. An invisible communion with the muse invariably precedes the creation of a work of art, akin to the libidinous union of sexes, as all art is a manifestation of the sexual instinct in (wo)man. Interestingly, I am writing these words on the night of ‘shiva rathri’ (shiva’s night) on the 17th February. Shiva is considered to be Adi guru (primal teacher) from whom the yogic tradition originates. This is the celestial night celebrating the matrimony of shiva and Parvati. The planetary positions on shiva rathri are so aligned to create an upsurge of energy in the human system whereby it is considered to be spiritually beneficial to stay awake and meditate throughout the night, to activate the divinity deep within oneself, for union of the material with the spiritual (Shiva, denoting the grand infinity, is the Lord of medicine, yoga, meditation, dance and music)…

    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Oh, Raj! I had no idea this was the night which you speak of – this is astounding and beautiful, I can’t thank you enough for sharing this with me. Bless you, thank you.

      (And you are up all night, I see ;) )

      I can’t even say how beautiful it is to know this. I can truly feel this energy somehow, I don’t know how to explain it. Based on what you have shared here I am now very eager to meditate often tonight and tap into the deeper connection within. You share so thoroughly and I am very grateful, my friend.

      This, this I love big time: “An invisible communion with the muse invariably precedes the creation of a work of art, akin to the libidinous union of sexes, as all art is a manifestation of the sexual instinct in (wo)man.” Just delicious!

      I love hearing from you and learning about these traditions, you always bring so much joy and enlightenment. As I read your words I was so filled with warmth and light.

      Humbly, thank you, dear friend. ;)

  9. Robert

    It is indeed erotic and sensual to create. First to stand naked in front of yourself, reaching into every sinew and particle of your being searching for the inspiration, delving into sometimes unknown or forgotten aspects of the psyche.

    Then to open up to the creative spirit, yielding, allowing that spirit to flow through you like a lover, caressing and urging you on until you dwell in the flow of creativity. Seduced out of the consciousness of time, never knowing from where the art comes from, yourself or a higher power.

    Finally to lay bare your soul to your audience through your art. To yield once again as they either fall in love with your art and hence you, or criticise you and your work like a spurned lover.

    Why do we do it, why do we subjet ourselves to these trials of faith? Because we have to. Our birthright and purpose to create, which cannot be denied :)

    A great post Allison, very inspiring as always, you rock!

    Peace and joy,


    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Beautiful Robert,
      my creative, brave, artistic warrior friend,

      We do it for love of the game, don’t we. We are just so in love with the whole process, drawn in, drawn to our knees, drawn up as if by wings. It’s all a wild and surprising dance, isn’t it?

      I adore your comment. I feel your spirit in every single word and in between them, too.

      And here comes exquisite: “Then to open up to the creative spirit, yielding, allowing that spirit to flow through you like a lover, caressing and urging you on until you dwell in the flow of creativity.” Rock. Star. Stellar. Yes. This.

      I know that for those of us who are already deeply in touch with our creative sensuality, this is something we can all understand. I just couldn’t resist the pull to try to spin it into words today – it was something I’d never attempted before.

      Thank you, as always, for your gentle words and light, dear one.

      Here’s to the Truth and the trials, ;)


  10. Alejandro

    Beautiful Angel,

    I am so grateful and thankful at the same time because you have been focusing your attention to the incredible topics of art, being truthful to the artist deep inside of us, and to the creative process. The sacred act of creating art through the resources available to us. To continue developing that wonderful artistry that we possess and manifesting it to the four corners of the world, for all people to see, hear, taste and feel.
    I want to share with you Allison and with your audience that I have been following your blog for quite a while, however, I have been particularly and powerfully drawn to your recent posts on the beginner mind and this one, for the simple reasons that they touch on a very crucial and important topic which in my own words and I ask your permission to paraphrase: “The awesome bliss of expressing our deepest and truthful art by giving creativity total freedom to be and do”. These topics are so vast and of such depth that many more blogs can be written about them.
    How much I do resonate with your experience Allison, for I may have a pretty good idea that when you go and enter your sacred place to write, a place where you begin interacting with all the inspiring forces of the Universe and creativity begins to work and flow through you…as the first sentence of your blog “Art delivers the truth out of us”. In my personal case it is the preparation of a speech in a topic that powerfully resonates with my heart’s vibrational frequency and therefore I am able to connect with an audience. It is also true that we are not alone when we are in the midst of creating our art, far from it, we are surrounded by our thoughts, ideas come and go depositing their wisdom, the driving force of passion is our most intimate companion who stays with us throughout the creative process. It doesn’t really matter whether your passion is writing, dancing, speaking, medicine, science or whatever else…when we are deeply engaged in our “Element”, we are truly experiencing an orgasmic event for it fills us with tingling delight and satisfaction.
    Let us continue to live fully, happily, with a positive perspective extending love to others…living passionately creating our unique and awesome art and share it freely with the rest of the world. I love you Divine Source of All Wisdom for every single day I am given and the opportunities to make a difference. I am very grateful for finding like minded souls like you Allison with whom I can share the ongoing creative process…


    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Dearest Alejandro,

      Thank you, thank you for your beautiful and thorough comment. I can feel your pulse in every word!

      I know we have much in common, why we do the work we do, what it means to us to truly connect to ourselves, our art, and to others. Thank you for sharing your reactions to this piece and all those that draw you in – I love that! I am so happy to know it, thank you, thank you truly.

      We are absolutely here to make a difference, a good one, a light-filled one. Bless you for all you do to light this world, dear friend.

      It is the only true Beauty there is.

      Wishing you peace, love, joy and inspiration, always,


    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Dear Galit,

      I am SO glad to know it, I really, really am. Thank you so much for reading and for taking the time to leave a beautiful comment. Sending so much peace and light your way, my friend. ;)

      Wishing you a most lovely weekend,


  11. keem

    Allison, the Art Elegant Stallion. Though one can easily foget that there is a source where it comes from. But we need to be reminded of that. The post is awesome. And i agree that the flowing mind is never alone

    1. Allison Marie Post author

      What an absolutely lovely comment, dear one, thank you. Thank you so very much for your kindness and light.

      “The Art Elegant Stallion” – that is so fiercely beautiful! I am so glad you enjoyed this post, that is awesome.

      We are always connected to the Great Source, aren’t we so very blessed.

      Peace, always,


  12. Batya

    “Toothsome.” What a luscious word, replete with taste, texture, substance, and flavor!

    Art makes the truth toothsome? Hmmm. Art is a separate but mutually interactive activity. I create, you interpret. What I am creating (my truth), may not be what you are [seeing, hearing, thinking]. That’s part of the mysticism of art, why something works for you but turns me off.

    I think art elaborates on the truth. It frames it, bejewels it, strips it of coverings and layers. TRUTH is immutable… but the way we handle it, perceive it, process it, and utilize it can be different for everyone. It is said that there were 12 gates to Jerusalem, seemingly corresponding to each of the 12 tribes … and a 13th for those who can’t enter one of the first twelve. Everyone has their own perspective, and all can lead to the center.

    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Dear Batya,

      Don’t you just love a juicy word like that? I especially like how you’ve described it! ;) Ah, writers.

      A wonderful comment – what one adores someone else may not, but regardless of the reaction of others, our truth is true for us. For me, what feels seductive is the pull to tell my truth through my art. Sometimes I find it easier and more fluid to tell my truth through a poem than any other way. Or how some painters or musicians say their art gets them closer to their truth than words ever could. It’s all so fascinating!

      This is so awesome: “Everyone has their own perspective, and all can lead to the center.” Isn’t this the most beautiful of things – it speaks of the grand potential for us all to exist in harmony, sharing what we see and appreciating what others see. Love!

      Wishing you so much peace, always, always,


  13. staci

    Alison, I love your passion for creating. I am also passionate about ‘creating’. I think it’s something within each and every one of us. Whether we are ‘artists’ or not. We all long to create.
    Steven Altrogge wrote in one of his books, “Because we are created in the image of God we all have an irresistible impulse to create and to establish order”, and, “God has filled our veins with creative juices. We can’t help it. We must create.” I wrote a post on this once. If you’d like to read it, you can do so here:
    At any rate, I share this passion of your.

    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Hello, hello Staci,

      So awesome to hear from you! Thank you for such a beautiful comment, I couldn’t agree with you more: we are ALL artists, all creatives.

      I adore this quotes you have shared! I will have to add Steven Altrogge to my reading list. Sounds right up my alley. ;)

      And thank you so much for inviting me to read your post – I look forward to it! We are surely kindred spirits.

      Wishing you so much peace and light, new friend,



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