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Dark Side of the Wound: When the Hurt Makes It Beautiful

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My eyes are shoved shut so tight I can physically feel the skin pulling taught behind my ears.

The first pristine pricks of the threat of a shattering cry are stabbing at the backs of my thin pulsing eyelids.

Fuck.

Even against the massive concrete resistance I’ve barricaded up, or maybe because of it, scorching tears pierce through and streak inky, crooked, blackened tracks across my cheeks.

Every drop of pent-up anger, shame, loss, greed, regret, jealousy and confusion plunges out of me onto the hardwood floor beneath my naked knees.

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The Secret to Beginner’s Mind (and Bruises)

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When you were a beginner you let yourself be clumsy because quenching your curiosity was well worth the bruises.

And some people were judging you then just as some people are judging you now, but you hadn’t the time or inclination to care. You were too busy enjoying yourself, immersed in the adventure of romancing life.

That’s the secret: the beginner lives life fully open to the process.  Skinned knees, roughed up feelings and all.

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That Which Needs To Burn: Moving On

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Write.  

Delete.

Write, write, write, write, write.  

Delete, delete, delete.

*cringe*

Delete.

Slicing what doesn’t work off of what does is a tricky skill, an art really. In fact, in some tough cases, doing so is nothing short of valiance.

It’s possible to put so much precious time, energy and talent into building something – a piece of writing, a relationship, a job, a project, a way of life – that we have an immensely difficult time letting go of what just doesn’t fit.

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Willing To Let Them Down

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Be willing to let them down.

The voices.

All of them invented.

Remember that the voices are not real, not real people. Real people rarely say much of anything.

Most of the people you are afraid to let down are not people but invented, conjured, rough-drafted voices in your head.  Imaginary projections of what you fear they might say about you if you stand up for yourself, if you ask for what you need.

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5 Minute Spirit Detox: Letting Go of Attachment and Attack

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Letting go of attachment and attack is an important way to be able to stay in touch with our intuition and creativity. It is the best way to refresh and renew our spirits by allowing inspiration to come through us, unblocked.

This 5 Minute Spirit Detox Cleanse is a quick way to come back to center at the beginning and end of your day.

In today’s busy world, it is super easy to pick up, harbor and hold on to negative energy without even being fully aware of it. As we move about our jam-packed days we subconsciously absorb subtle (or, in some cases, not so subtle) messages of attack, pain, cruelty, self judgement, jealousy and stress.

If we don’t empty ourselves of all this heaviness, it compounds and sort of cakes up (not the good kind of cake with butter cream frosting and candles – we are talking about the bad kind of cake) inside of us without release.

In order to tune in to that higher frequency of love and peace, we need to acknowledge and release the negative energy we are holding on to that keeps us crippled and held back from our full potential. Negative energy is toxic for mind, body and spirit. It’s gotta go.

I hope this Spirit Detox cleanse will serve you well, dear ones.

(This and additional meditations are also available on iTunes, if you follow Glory Begin there for updates on the go.)

The 5 Minute Detox Meditation: Spirit Cleanse

(Transcript below)

Welcome, welcome angel to your five minute Spirit Detox meditation. This meditation is perfect for those who are willing, open and ready to go deeper with their spiritual practice and to surrender to the power of practicing non-attachment.

So let’s take a moment to sit up comfortably in your space, relax your mind and body.

Gently close your eyes and take a deep breath in deep, deep, deep, and exhale fully, all the way out your mouth.

As the following mantras are read, follow along and allow your spirit to be refreshed through the exercise of letting go.

I am empty of self doubt.

I am empty of stress.

I hold on to nothing.

I am empty of judgement.

I am empty of self attack.

I hold no attack toward others.

I empty myself of all harshness.

I hold on to nothing. I am empty.

I am a vessel for peace and light.

I let go of the heaviness.

I am empty of all hurt.

I am empty of all jealousy.

Empty of all cruelty.

I am empty of thought.

In this moment I need no thinking. No words.

I am empty of desire.

I am empty of the desire to please or to fix.

I am empty of the need for praise.

Empty of the need for validation.

I am empty in this moment and I am whole.

I have no attachment to the judgement of others.

I am empty of need.

I seek nothing.

I choose in this moment to empty myself of the fears.

I surrender my fear to Love for healing.

I am empty of holding on, I let go of controlling.

I am empty of the past.

Empty of the future.

I am empty now.

Take a deep breath in through your nose, exhale fully out your mouth.

Empty of all negative energy.

Allow all stress to leave your body.

Allow all tension to leave your mind.

As you breathe in again deeply imagine your breath filling you with light and love and peace.

Imagine your entire being filled with the warm life giving energy of the gentle power of love.

You are exactly where you need to be.

And to close this meditation take a moment to imagine your entire body and mind glowing with light and warmth.

Breathe in peace.

And when you are ready, open your eyes.

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Hi, angel. New here? Sign up to follow via email at the top of the page there. Also, listen to my free podcasts and connect more deeply with your creative self and spiritual being.

Let’s connect on Twitter: @GloryBegin

© 2014 Allison Marie Conway at Glory Begin

 

Steel Bars: How We Cage Ourselves Off From the Freedom to Begin

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There is something unimaginably powerful you hold deep inside, something secret. Something only you know about and, to be honest, even you are not exactly sure where it comes from or how in the world you would ever pull it off.

To acknowledge the existence of this wild thing, this dream, this ambition, even only to yourself, would be impressive let alone to share it with anyone else.

You love this mysterious thing though, just as we all love our little secret passionate things. We love them in the dark, we dream about them in the night, we meet up with them in the shadows of space between the regular stuff we do each day.

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Ferocious Peace: The Struggle and Strength to Go Still

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Photo by Mike Pratt, Plaza de San Francisco Cuba

Fiery flames dance atop the candles glowing all around me, I know because I lit them seconds ago, but I don’t see them. I’m alone with myself, attempting to navigate the rumbling, velvety darkness behind my pursed eyelids.

It’s the early part of the morning, the slim sliver of time-expanding space where all is perfectly, poetically quiet. Loud quiet.

The stars are still strung up, though their piercing becomes dimmer by the minute, and the energy of the day is still wet and fresh as dew; just beginning to stir like the first warm flicker of the tightly tucked wings on the birds who will soon begin their singing.

I am sitting up straight on the floor, stark still, breathing so slowly it feels just shy of impossible, and if you could see me you would swear I was now adrift inside the most pleasurable, comforting peace within my silken gentle body.

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GB Podcast 3: Honor Your Creative Sanctuary

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© 2014 Allison Marie Conway at Glory Begin

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Welcome, welcome you gorgeous angels, you incredibly gifted artists. I am Allison the creator of Glory Begin and your host for these podcasts. Thank you so much for being here today. I am super excited to get knee deep, maybe even shoulders deep, what the hell let’s go all in, let’s plunge in, to the topic of your creative sanctuary.

There is a vast open space within you that is so intriguing, so mesmerizing and so mysterious that it pulls at you all the time. Within every one one of us there is this warm, dark and joyous place where our inner most secrets and creative visions are gnawing to come out and play. You feel this right, sometimes?

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Meditation In Difficult Situations (5:27 Minute Guided Meditation)

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Meditation In Difficult Situations

Allow yourself to sit comfortably in your meditation space.

Close your eyes and relax your whole body.

Take a deep breath in your nose and exhale fully out your mouth.

Sit up with your spine straight and palms facing up, calm and alert to receive the loving energy that will come forward in this meditation.

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GB Podcast 2: Daily Meditation to Transform Your Life

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(Podcast transcript is below)

Hello hello gorgeous people, beautiful souls! Thank you so much for being here and for bringing your amazing energy to this space. I am Allison, your host for the podcasts and the creator of Glory Begin.

First let me say thank you all for your messages and love following the opening podcast last week. I can’t tell you enough how much it means to me that you are out there and that we have connected. It is such a gift and I don’t take that for granted. There is a LOT of noise out there and so many messages coming at us from every which way so to be able to spend time interacting mindfully and peacefully here absolutely rocks my soul.

So I thank you for being here and I also want to say that I believe we are here for a reason. If you have come upon this message and something resonates with you, that is not an accident. In fact, I will even go so far as to say that there are no accidents in this life. Every single thing you experience is for a reason.

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Glory Begin Podcast 1: The Power Of A New Beginning

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Beginning something that matters deeply to our souls takes serious courage.  Change is hard for most of us even when the change we intend to make is one that will improve our health in mind, body, and spirit.

Ironically, it’s when we set out to do something that we know is good for us that we most fear beginning it.  Staying stuck in the same old patterns, though painful, is easy. Disrupting those old patterns can bring us face to face with some harsh resistance – both from inside of ourselves and from the outside world.

It’s in that space – that tricky space made up of the moments where self doubt, fear, and loneliness threaten to derail your quest for joy and a better life – that I most want to serve you.

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