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Crowding Out the Crowd: What If It’s All Been Done Before?

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As creatives, we dread the ominous feeling that whatever it is we want to do has already been done.

And – horror of horrors – that it’s all been done and done better than we could ever do it.

So let’s get right down to it, then, guys.  Let’s play this harrowing mind game all the way to its bitter end, shall we?

Here’s the truth:

If you are reading it, it’s been done.

If you can see it, hear it, taste it or touch it, it means someone brought it forward into existence already and it can now be experienced, held, by others.

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Naked On The Table: The Agony and The Ecstasy of Writing

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It happens. And it can cripple you either way.

When you find yourself in that rare and paralyzing and exquisite place where it’s scary to write and it’s scary to not write – maybe think about this.

We sit around and we mull over and we wallow in the waiting . . . to see if our creation will ever finally look us dead in the eye. To see if we’ll be okay, if we’ll ever become ready, if we’ll ever find the strength, the reasons, the angle, the answers, the perfect what-have-you.

To write.
To publish.
To show.
To invite.
To expose ourselves.
To lay naked on the table and not budge.

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Empty Threads: Self-Doubt and Arrogance in Art

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I’m writing but only in the sense that words are standing next to one another in a line across the screen.

They mock me with their blankness. I knock them over backwards.

I construct another little wall of letter-soldier-figures, punching them into place and they march, left to right, single file as I’ve instructed.

But they won’t speak on my command; empty words have nothing to say.

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Killing the Silence(s)

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Silence.

Is deafening.

Is golden.

Is revenge.

Is . . . ?

Not the solid wall we often imagine it to be.  The one we fear brushing up against.

It’s not the sort of stoic, finite, dead space of a concrete block we try so deftly to avoid slamming into.

Silence, instead, is a living thing.

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Hardest in Love: When It’s Hot, When It’s Fierce

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“So you ask for a hotter fire, a fiercer confrontation. Even though this is often painful rather than pleasurable, it’s all right, for you are reaching toward that freedom which lies beyond pleasure and pain. When you want to burn away the grip of your ego on your awareness you’ll endure whatever is needed to clean up your life.” – Ram Dass

A spiritual journey gets hardcore when your commitment to it rises above all else. As you come to realize that everything is a spiritual experience – every encounter, every relationship, every problem, every joy – you are inevitably confronted with the heavy stuff, the seedy stuff you need to fundamentally change about the way you view the world and your role in it.

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I Hate To Tell You This

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I’m leaving.

We lost.

It’s over.

You’re fired.

He’s gone.

In a split instant – in the slender space between just a couple of words – our lives change.

Some changes mount gradually, nearly imperceptibly, over time while others punch through like a slug to the gut.

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The Answers We Seek: Leading the Essential Change of Art (Beginner’s Luck Series)

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Sometimes I wonder if ‪creating ‎art is more about asking questions than telling stories.

Can I look at this another way?

How does this change when you . . . ?

Do you see what I see?

What if we . . . ?

In a way, it takes some guts to ask questions, right. To raise a hand, to investigate, to interrupt the regularly scheduled program. So few people do anymore. Everyone seems to have “the” answer nailed down, figured out.

Googled.

But what about the questions that can’t be researched, they have to be experienced? What about our incredible capacity to invent, create, bend, innovate? Make stuff up?

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Making Connections That Matter: Who Decides?

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What we decide:

They won’t like it.

They won’t want it.

They won’t care about it.

What they decide:

No one invited us.

No one asked us.

No one cared about it.

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We Will Bleed: To Master the Beginning Is to Master It All (Beginner’s Luck Series)

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Come on, baby, brush it off, let it go.

Don’t stop now, love, you will figure this out.

You’ve got this, kiddo, keep going.

That’s some legit advice right there, no? Up against the casual panic of our wild ego minds, this stuff sounds good to hear; some solid, grounded, encouraging words for the one who refuses to quit.

Words that remind her how brave she is for showing up. Words that compliment his determination, that congratulate his trying, his moving, his putting it out there.

We see this with kids all the time: learning to walk, learning to speak, learning to ride a bike, to write, to dance, to not put peas up their nose (in their ears, etc.). Kids are precious and innocent and we allow them to get about the exploration, to get messy, to fall off.

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The Only Way In: How We Maintain Creative Presence (Beginner’s Luck Series)

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You would think an artistic success would be a good thing, right?

You would think that to be celebrated for your great work and your creative elegance would be just the very thing you need to keep you going. It would be sparkled and engaging and open you up even more widely, more broadly, more deeply to your art.

More likely, though, it will stop you dead in your tracks.

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To Be Seen Alone: A Brief Meditation on Art, Sex, Truth and Surprise

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Art delivers the truth out of us.

That’s why we fear it.

That’s why we crave it.

Something about the way creation has to come about that demands surrender, demands not just a letting go but a not-holding-back.

Something.

In that you are never alone when you are creating art. It’s not a thing you can pull off singly.

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We Go Alone: The Single Greatest Power of Beginner’s Mind (Beginner’s Luck Series)

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Forget everyone you know.

Don’t abandon them, leave them, kick them to the curb (and if you do, for heaven’s sake don’t blame it on this blog post, man).

You don’t have to wish them harm or push or shove them out of your way. Just politely forget them. Just for a few minutes.

Forget about what their voices sound like or what they say, or what you imagine they might say.

Forget the Twitter chats and the Facebook postings.

Forget about what they tell you, what they don’t tell you, or what they ask of you.

Forget me.

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That Which Needs To Burn: Moving On

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Write.  

Delete.

Write, write, write, write, write.  

Delete, delete, delete.

*cringe*

Delete.

Slicing what doesn’t work off of what does is a tricky skill, an art really. In fact, in some tough cases, doing so is nothing short of valiance.

It’s possible to put so much precious time, energy and talent into building something – a piece of writing, a relationship, a job, a project, a way of life – that we have an immensely difficult time letting go of what just doesn’t fit.

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5 Minute Spirit Detox: Letting Go of Attachment and Attack

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Letting go of attachment and attack is an important way to be able to stay in touch with our intuition and creativity. It is the best way to refresh and renew our spirits by allowing inspiration to come through us, unblocked.

This 5 Minute Spirit Detox Cleanse is a quick way to come back to center at the beginning and end of your day.

In today’s busy world, it is super easy to pick up, harbor and hold on to negative energy without even being fully aware of it. As we move about our jam-packed days we subconsciously absorb subtle (or, in some cases, not so subtle) messages of attack, pain, cruelty, self judgement, jealousy and stress.

If we don’t empty ourselves of all this heaviness, it compounds and sort of cakes up (not the good kind of cake with butter cream frosting and candles – we are talking about the bad kind of cake) inside of us without release.

In order to tune in to that higher frequency of love and peace, we need to acknowledge and release the negative energy we are holding on to that keeps us crippled and held back from our full potential. Negative energy is toxic for mind, body and spirit. It’s gotta go.

I hope this Spirit Detox cleanse will serve you well, dear ones.

(This and additional meditations are also available on iTunes, if you follow Glory Begin there for updates on the go.)

The 5 Minute Detox Meditation: Spirit Cleanse

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Welcome, welcome angel to your five minute Spirit Detox meditation. This meditation is perfect for those who are willing, open and ready to go deeper with their spiritual practice and to surrender to the power of practicing non-attachment.

So let’s take a moment to sit up comfortably in your space, relax your mind and body.

Gently close your eyes and take a deep breath in deep, deep, deep, and exhale fully, all the way out your mouth.

As the following mantras are read, follow along and allow your spirit to be refreshed through the exercise of letting go.

I am empty of self doubt.

I am empty of stress.

I hold on to nothing.

I am empty of judgement.

I am empty of self attack.

I hold no attack toward others.

I empty myself of all harshness.

I hold on to nothing. I am empty.

I am a vessel for peace and light.

I let go of the heaviness.

I am empty of all hurt.

I am empty of all jealousy.

Empty of all cruelty.

I am empty of thought.

In this moment I need no thinking. No words.

I am empty of desire.

I am empty of the desire to please or to fix.

I am empty of the need for praise.

Empty of the need for validation.

I am empty in this moment and I am whole.

I have no attachment to the judgement of others.

I am empty of need.

I seek nothing.

I choose in this moment to empty myself of the fears.

I surrender my fear to Love for healing.

I am empty of holding on, I let go of controlling.

I am empty of the past.

Empty of the future.

I am empty now.

Take a deep breath in through your nose, exhale fully out your mouth.

Empty of all negative energy.

Allow all stress to leave your body.

Allow all tension to leave your mind.

As you breathe in again deeply imagine your breath filling you with light and love and peace.

Imagine your entire being filled with the warm life giving energy of the gentle power of love.

You are exactly where you need to be.

And to close this meditation take a moment to imagine your entire body and mind glowing with light and warmth.

Breathe in peace.

And when you are ready, open your eyes.

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© 2014 Allison Marie Conway at Glory Begin

 

Ferocious Peace: The Struggle and Strength to Go Still

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Fiery flames dance atop the candles glowing all around me, I know because I lit them seconds ago, but I don’t see them. I’m alone with myself, attempting to navigate the rumbling, velvety darkness behind my pursed eyelids.

It’s the early part of the morning, the slim sliver of time-expanding space where all is perfectly, poetically quiet. Loud quiet.

The stars are still strung up, though their piercing becomes dimmer by the minute, and the energy of the day is still wet and fresh as dew; just beginning to stir like the first warm flicker of the tightly tucked wings on the birds who will soon begin their singing.

I am sitting up straight on the floor, stark still, breathing so slowly it feels just shy of impossible, and if you could see me you would swear I was now adrift inside the most pleasurable, comforting peace within my silken gentle body.

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GB Podcast 3: Honor Your Creative Sanctuary

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Welcome, welcome you gorgeous angels, you incredibly gifted artists. I am Allison the creator of Glory Begin and your host for these podcasts. Thank you so much for being here today. I am super excited to get knee deep, maybe even shoulders deep, what the hell let’s go all in, let’s plunge in, to the topic of your creative sanctuary.

There is a vast open space within you that is so intriguing, so mesmerizing and so mysterious that it pulls at you all the time. Within every one one of us there is this warm, dark and joyous place where our inner most secrets and creative visions are gnawing to come out and play. You feel this right, sometimes?

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Glory Begin Podcast 1: The Power Of A New Beginning

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Beginning something that matters deeply to our souls takes serious courage.  Change is hard for most of us even when the change we intend to make is one that will improve our health in mind, body, and spirit.

Ironically, it’s when we set out to do something that we know is good for us that we most fear beginning it.  Staying stuck in the same old patterns, though painful, is easy. Disrupting those old patterns can bring us face to face with some harsh resistance – both from inside of ourselves and from the outside world.

It’s in that space – that tricky space made up of the moments where self doubt, fear, and loneliness threaten to derail your quest for joy and a better life – that I most want to serve you.

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