You’ll either find this to be the toughest or the easiest thing in the world to do.
If things get brilliantly bizarre – which they totally might so, I beg of you, please don’t rule that crazy goodness out – you’ll find it to be both at the same time.
There’s a lot of noise right now about resolutions and this new year being the most “fucktabulous” or whatever the latest punchy catch word is but experience has proven that until the year actually ends itself, there’s no sure way to tell what in the confetti is about to drop.
A proper year takes its grand old time undressing and I don’t know about you but I can’t wait that long to see if when I turn around my life in retrospect had been fuckalicious. I mean, who could possibly predict how many other fucksational ways we’ll have come up with to use curse words on kitschy cocktail napkins by then ( . . . wait for it . . . ).
But there is something that could rock your world right this minute even if the rest of the year falls to hell in a fiery hand basket.
In fact, it could totally transform your life if you are willing to acknowledge that your life is only this minute anyway.
Before we do this though, try not to get all gummed-up about the fact that there are no rules other than to just do it.
Maybe you’ll want to meditate on it and see what comes forward without forcing it – that’s probably a very cool idea – but here’s what:
Write one true thing.
Just get after your personal truest nugget of a thing and write that sly kitten down. Write the most honest thing you can think of whether it takes the form of a single word, a sentence, a poem, a song, a manifesto, a letter to yourself, a promise note, a mural, whatever.
Just dig until you can’t dig any deeper and write the thing that is remarkably crystal clear true for you. Something you know with your whole being. Not necessarily the noblest or what you think would sound good to your mom, but the truest thing. For you.
Because this, babe, is how you begin anything that actually matters.
This is you at the beginning of your everything whether you realize it or not. This is where you are living from. Better to grab hold of that truth and look her dead in the eyes, yes?
This is how I write. It’s how I create absolutely everything you can see or hear or experience through Glory Begin. Because if you begin from anywhere else except the deep saucy truth, everything that comes after will fall apart.
“It’s when you begin to lie to yourself in a poem in order to make a poem that you fail. That is why I do not rework poems but just let them go at first sitting, because if I have lied originally there’s no use driving the spikes home, and if I haven’t lied, well hell, there’s nothing to worry about.” Charles Bukowski
How to begin a new life? How to begin a new love? How to begin your badass art? How to begin changing the game? Start squarely here: write one honest thing.
Write the most honest thing.
Write one true thing.
Which is another way of saying: get into exactly where you are and use it to get you exactly where you want to go.
Because we can plan and goal-set and iSchedule every sliver of what we think the future should look like, but we can’t move forward in a way that capitalizes on the limitless power of who we truly are if we aren’t razor sharp about who we are first.
A funny thing happens when you write one honest thing: everything else settles and gets tremendously quiet. All the doubts bow themselves down. All the confusion steadies into a gentle breath. All the fears curl up and hush.
In the simple moment of acknowledging one honest thing, you come back home to exactly who you are. You know precisely what it means to be your own.
It’s loud out there right now, troops. With the flashy bulbs of empty promises and the almost punishing demand for impressive things to start happening NOW NOW NOW.
Don’t let that overwhelm you. That’s just a thing people do right now. You and I – we’re talking about what we can do anytime always for the rest of our lives. And it will always work.
Just write one fiercely true thing. Start there.
You don’t have to impress anyone. You don’t have to strive to be anyone else. You don’t have to concern yourself with whether or not you’ll write the same thing again in a week or a month or a year. You probably won’t. Forget all that, it doesn’t matter.
Quiet all the noise and just write one honest thing. Feel what it feels like to cut through all the outside nonsense, and all the inside nonsense, and finally make out the shape of your own personal truth. She’s in there. She’s your only true north.
Let it come. Touch it. Trace it. Explore.
It may be tough. It may be easy. When it’s the truest thing, it will be both.
Write one true thing now and listen to it. Be in awe of the sheer breakthrough of that.
Because for all the grandstanding going on right now, most people will never do this. Most people will be boozily making fucktacular (okay. seriously.) resolutions and avoiding this one really hard, really simple, really powerful thing.
Once you get to your truest thing you’ll know how to go from there. And then there’s only one thing left: to do it again and again and again as often as you can forever.
The things you write may change.
But as long as they are the truest things, the place they come from won’t.
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P.S. Thank you for sharing my stuff with your friends and family and lovers (and secret lovers). I am so deeply, deeply honored and encouraged by it. Much love to you and yours. x
P.P. S. Starting the new year by beginning an exciting new thing? You’ll love my free series called Beginner’s Luck: 7 Ways the Beginner’s Mind Makes Better Art and it is here. If you want to rock the hell out of your fresh start, I guarantee: this will help you create your absolute best stuff yet. You ready, babe? Awesome, let’s roll. xx