How to Conquer Your Greatest Fear

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(Hey there, gorgeous, Listen, before this gets any more compromising, I should probably warn you: This post is a bit longer than permissible by socially acceptable blogging standards. We all know the ‘proper’ length of a blog post has already been decided for us and nailed to the cross of 1000 words max, so have decreed the blogging gods. But here’s what: I’m not interested in appeasing them today. Not today. Today I need this – this whole ravenous thing – and I need every sexy, lengthy, stubborn inch of it. If you come with all the way, I will love you forever in a place warm and intimate and eternal. It will be glorious. So. You wanna?)

The writer in me wanted to scratch apart what I’m about to share and then patch it back together; make it – you know – “better.”

Maybe twist it inward then unravel it again; thread a few more thoughts through it and slide a few others out.

But then I realized that this thing wasn’t really mine to begin with so who was I to monkey around with it?

Below is a post that fell out of me onto social media in one of those “Ah Ha!” moments where the clouds ceremoniously part and the dazzling light warmly aligns your vision and you finally see Everything clearly and exactly as it always was, but with the clouds and the fog and everything before, well, you were just kind of screwed.

The post is the worded equivalent of my deep bow to the Universe – both for putting up with my bullshit and for getting me beyond it.

What I shared (on Instagram and Facebook, it so happens) was like a thought-sound-bite from the instant I understood how to conquer my biggest fear.

Obviously, I couldn’t have written this thing if I didn’t struggle mightily first. The details of the struggle don’t matter (really – the details are sickeningly mundane, as so many details tend to be), it’s only important to say that when we struggle – when the problems, frustrations and confusion come – we can’t stop asking for the answer to be revealed to us.

We have to keep attempting to drop the fear and seek the healing. We will fail repeatedly, of course, for we are but flesh and bone, but we can’t stop asking Love to reveal the solution that already exists.

The one we just can’t see through our own clouds, our own fog, our own mess. We have to trust that the answer is on its way and that when it comes we will get it.

A Course In Miracles teaches us that the solution and the problem exist in the same moment, the same space. The problem and the solution are one, in fact. (Apparently, they come as a nice little boxed set, like earrings or Uggs or . . . espresso pods.)

No problem exists that is not already solved.

We just give up on asking to see it that way too soon.

As for me, I was merrily thrashing around inside the anger of a tiny thing, in all of my decked-out goofiness, making that little thing MUCH grander than it actually was, and then cowering in fright of its ridiculous fabricated grandeur.

I was digging my own suffering, man.

So much so that I wasn’t completely sure I wanted out of it.

“If you wish only to be healed, you heal. Your single purpose makes this possible. But if you are afraid of healing, then it cannot come through you. The only thing that is required for a healing is a lack of fear.” ACIM

Truly, I was clinging like hell to the fear, to the anger, to the madness. But why? And fear of what?

“The way to heal is to be healed. The miracle extends without your help but you are needed that it can begin. Accept the miracle of healing, and it will go forth because of what it is. It is its nature to extend itself the instant it is born.” ACIM

It turns out, for all it’s wicked hairiness, it wasn’t the fear of my worthlessness that had me in fits. No, it was A Bigger Fear.

The Biggest Fear.

THE MOTHER (AND FATHER AND OFFSPRING AND GRANDOFFSPRING AND – okay, you feel me) OF ALL FEARS.

It was the fear of my own Glory. That’s why it was so hard to let go of.

Because if I let go of this tiny mad thing (that I was so relishing and amplifying into a gargantuan, beasty, fleshy, monstrous thing, remember), then I would have to fully stand in my Greatness.

Greatness shoes, it turns out, are very scary to climb into.

If I let go of my fear of darkness, I would come face to face with my greatest fear: that of my light.

And I wasn’t sure if I could dare to love myself that much, not even for a second.

“It does mean, if only for an instant, you love without attack. An instant is sufficient. Miracles wait not on time. The holy instant is the miracle’s abiding place.” ACIM

But I did dare.

In one bold, awkward, honest moment I surrendered saying, “Don’t let me stop you, Love. Please just don’t let me stop You from leading me through this.”

And with that sincere willingness to let go, in that tiny moment, through the razor thin slit in the membrane between what I feared I was (weak) and what I intuitively knew I was (strong), my glory was born.

In an instant.

The post you are about to read was that instant – my holy instant. It was what came forward the moment I accepted the answer, the wisdom, and the healing. It was my miracle: my change of mind from fear to love.

“Accept the miracle of healing and it will go forth because of what it is. It is its nature to extend itself the instant it is born.” ACIM

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The Post:

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Reveal nothing less than your full glory.

Do you know what your GLORY means, my love?

Glory means your nobility. Your magnificence. Your greatness. Your majesty. Your honor. Your splendor. Your beauty.

Do you know what keeps you from it?

Terrified, frightened, scattered, frantic, confused, vicious, petty, tiny ego.

Getting mired in the small nonsense is our attempt to keep from embracing our full glory.

The part of us that plays with nonsense is nothing about nothing.

Fuck that, babes. Stop looking at what keeps you held down. If there are circumstances you don’t like, if people seem to be treating you badly, okay. Okay. Let them be. The circumstances and the people.

Let them be exactly as they are and you let go of trying to mess with them and turn them into anything. Look away.

Turn your attention instead toward the truth of your magnificence. Focus on what you know you’ve got to bring and bring it. Get deep inside and own your glory, uncomfortable as that may sound. There you will be Guided.

The only place to begin is from this holy space.

You are more afraid of your light than of your darkness, angel.

Turn toward the Light anyway. Let it burn away all the little stuff you occupy yourself with for fear of how splendid you are, and raise you up instead.

Everything that has happened up until this very moment was designed to raise you up.

Everything that is happening now is your chance to decide for your own RADIANCE.

So decide. Your glory begins today.

No more nonsense.

Your glory begins now.

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Accepting the full expanse of my greatness was what I had to do to move past the little fear that kept my ego occupied. Stepping into greatness is what I was designed to do.

It is what we are all designed to do.

To get beyond the petty illusions and the ego drama. To wake up and see that the nonsense stuff – anger, jealousy, judgment, cruelty, self doubt, attack – is nothing more than a convenient distraction of our own creation.

And when we succeed – by nothing less than the Grace of a Power far, far grander than ourselves – in bravely moving past these fears, we do so because we are meant to shine that light for others that they may see us and have the courage to own the glory that is theirs.

Thank you for reading this, you guys. If you are at this point, we’re mighty tight, you and I. My journey is your journey is our journey. I love you for your energy and your presence and your strength. And your willingness to go the extra sexy, lengthy, stubborn inch with me today. I thank you for it and I pray the read has served you well on your path.

“Accept the miracle of healing and it will go forth because of what it is. It is its nature to extend itself the instant it is born.”

And so it is, beautiful soul siblings.

And so it is.

 

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37 thoughts on “How to Conquer Your Greatest Fear

  1. Brad

    Groovy post Allison! I love your juicy way of writing. And thanks for the nudge to move beyond my fears, find that holy place and live from greatness.

    Shine on!

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    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Hi my gorgeous, gorgeous friend,
      Thank you so much, my love! :) I was feeling the Fiest a little bit on this one. I am so heartened that you read it through and now we are like blood. I hope it serves you well.
      Honor your holy space within, there you will be Guided. It is funny isn’t it how we actually are more afraid to be great than we even realize. Sometime we are the goofiest of creatures, yes? :)
      I love you to the moon, around all the stars, and back again, sweet friend. Thank you for bringing your energy and light to this place. I am so grateful for it.
      Let us do shine on! Xxx

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    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Dearest Aaron,

      I know I always say this but it’s because it’s true: coming from you these words mean so very, very much to me.

      I absolutely love knowing this timing jives for you.

      Thank you for commenting – I needed it more than I can express. I’m so grateful.

      Blessings and so much light to you, my good friend.

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  2. Cathy

    Beautiful maginficent glorious post! That is exactly what the problem is and just being willing to open myself up to my brilliance is the key. I’m giving a talk about using art as a tool during the cancer path next Saturday and I’ve been nervous about it. Your post came at a great time to teach me I can be brilliant so I can show others.

    I am from Baranoo Wisconsin – 20 miles from ACIM center in Wis Dells. I know a lot of people from there and have visited. If you ever go there, let me know and I’ll come see you!

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    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Hello, hello beautiful Cathy,
      I’m so thrilled to hear from you! Thank you for taking the time to share your awesome comment. I am blown away by the timing of this post meeting you just at the right time. I LOVE WHEN THAT HAPPENS. :)
      It makes everything glow when our experiences help each other out. Love it.
      I also love very, very much that you are about to give a talk about something so totally gorgeous like art as a tool during the cancer path. My mom suffered greatly from cancer treatments but even right up until she passed on, she never lost her incredible affection for quilting, decorating, fashion, harp and all things inspired and magical.
      You are such a bright and beautiful soul, Cathy. Thank you for the incredibly generous work you do. Shine baby, SHINE!! :)
      NO kidding about you being close to ACIM center in Wis Dells. I am totally stoked that you know folks there, that you have been there and that you will come see me if (when??) I go. I would love it so much and it would be an honor and a great deal of fun to meet you in person!!
      If you are up for it – let me know how your talk goes. I have great respect for you putting the great stuff out there to lift people up.
      Blessings, peace and SO much love to you, soul sister. XO

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    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Hello, hello my friend,
      Thank you for your beautiful presence and comment! It is the BEST to know this resonated for you. :)
      I hope your day is peaceful and bright.

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  3. Liesl

    Okay – you started it – with all this talk of sexiness and glory and greatness shoes. Dang, Girl! Own it, Sister. I am singing at the top of my lungs, and I have wings. I have these fabulous, mighty, powerful, angel wings, and I am sportin’ them like a true goddess.

    As I read this, I sat up taller, sat up taller into my own strength and beauty. That’s what you did for me today. You helped me own it too. I stand taller knowing we’ve got this. We’ve got these greatness shoes, these boots, these wings. I realized this is what I see in others, when I feel a little jealous of their coolness, of their sureness, their hippy beauty and ability to stay calm no matter what. It’s that they are owning their glory in the midst of it all, and you spelling it out that way gave me permission to own mine too. To stand back from the fray of angry drivel or nonsense gossip, and stand with my wings unfurled, my head tall, my feet firmly planted in my greatness shoes, my sexy owned deep inside me – not needing to be on display for anyone but my beloved, but owned and lived in and fully embraced.

    Oh, girl. What a beautiful ride.

    Thank you so much for sharing – for being you – in all your scrumptious You-ness!

    I got a big ol’ kiss for you, right here!

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    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Oh my beautiful, beautiful Liesl,
      I have so missed you and I feel blessed beyond measure to have your delicious words. Thank you, thank you, thank you for your presence and light and divinity and strength to OWN IT. It is not easy. It is brave.
      You ARE absolutely an angel decked-out in wings too brilliant to even capture in words. I am so humbled by your thoughts, I stopped breathing and had tears in my eyes when you said “. . . stand with my wings unfurled, my head tall, my feet firmly planted in my greatness shoes, my sexy owned deep inside me.”
      GOD that is GORGEOUS! xx
      You are a gift to me, and I am so grateful for it.
      I was jealous, too. I get jealous. Jealous seems to find me when I least expect it, right. And I hate it. But we are so much bigger, my sweet love, we are so much grander than any silly thing that pretends to get in our way. I know we are.
      And I thank you for being you in all your fantastic, glowing you-ness. You are a spirit unlike any other and when you unfurl it is The Awesome.
      Kisses, angel, and light and warmth all through and through and through. XXXxxxx

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      1. Liesl Garner

        I had to come back this morning and reread this and be reminded of greatness shoes, and standing tall with wings unfurled. I was feeling little, and anxious, and not brave at all. My kids get me flustered and I feel like a crazy little tyrant. They are glorious too. They have big, big greatness shoes to fill, those darling creatives. And oh, raising artists can be so exhausting – the highs, and lows, the brilliance and the negative self-talk. I know it so well in myself, and find it so heartbreaking in them. They are so genius.

        So, I needed to refresh my spirit with these thoughts again. I need to settle into my big, gorgeous self and smile through all their ups and downs. Encouragement is what we all chiefly need, right? And plenty of good sbscks?

        Much love to you!
        Liesl

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        1. Allison Marie Post author

          Good morning, BEAUTIFUL Liesl,
          I am moved to my deepest core to have you – your energy, your wilingness, your presence, your REAL, your strength – here in this place. You are totally in my heart and I’m hugging you big time.
          Isn’t it unbelievable how we ride the roller coaster? Just when we think we’ve got this thing licked – life goes one way and our sanity goes the other!! I totally feel you, my love. I really, really do. In fact I’m writing on this topic (sort of) right this second and so your words have reached me exactly when I needed to hear them.
          You are a gift, friend. And you are a TOTAL BABE for sharing with me. I am tremendously grateful! :)
          Raising artists must be exhausting. I am still trying to raise myself and I get exhausted!! Hahaaa, it is a beautiful, crazy, wild, blessing of a battle. right?
          I agree: we really do just need encouragement. Just a reminder from some other struggling soul that we are all in this together. And that we have an inner guide who will never leave us, our little intuition animal call it what we may, and we just need to breathe and reboot sometimes.
          Incidently – I needed a MAJOR reboot this weekend. Maybe it’s something in this smokey, pumpkin air? :) :)
          I love you to bits for being you, Liesl. Cheers to our greatness shoes . . . and our daring to step into them over and over again. Rock on, sister. XOXO

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  4. Mark

    Thank you so much for stopping by my blog site Allison, otherwise I wouldn’t have discovered your amazing blog!….Really have been struggling with my depression, anxiety, and assorted insecurities lately….I know it will pass, it always does; but it doesn’t make it any easier to deal with when your caught up in despair. Everything you wrote about really hit home for me. Sometimes we need to reminded of things we already know…or see them presented in a new light. You did that for me today and I’m tremendously grateful for your light. Thanks so much again for sharing….much love!

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    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Hello, hello Mark,

      It was my pleasure and thank you for your presence here. It is my greatest hope that the content here will serve you well along your path. Your words mean so much to me, thank you. :)

      I am honored to meet you right where you are – struggles, triumphs, and everything in between. I agree with you 100% – sometimes we really do just need a reminder. And it seems the universe always finds us and sends us messages to lead us back home. If the words here touched you, I promise they were meant for you to come across at just this time.

      It’s the BEST when that happens. :)

      Thank you for your warmth, presence and energy. Sending so much big love to you, my friend!

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  5. thetovaryshconnection

    So much wisdom in your post! Yes, we do get caught up in our ‘story’ and our role of perpetrator, victim, or rescuer. We are comfortable with our starring role and don’t want to give it up.
    And yes, we find it difficult to believe the brilliance of our own internal light. We long for love when our entire make-up is one of love. Where did the self-loathing and fear take hold?
    So glad you are sharing this with others. May each of them have their own AHA! moment as they read your posts. Namaste, dear sister!

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    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Hello, hello there, my beautiful soul sister,

      Most importantly: thank you so much for your presence, spirit and bright light here in this place. I am truly grateful for it! Knowing this one resonated for you means the world to me. Thank you so. :)

      I adore your comment and this especially stuck out to me: “when our entire make-up is one of love.” THAT is GORGEOUS!! You rule the universe with a line like that. Rock. It. Out. Love it.

      Here’s to all of our collective AH-HA’s, dear one. Namaste, angel, and sending so much love and light your way.

      Allison

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    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Hello, hello beautiful Shelly,

      Your words and spirit light me up! Thank you for your gorgeous energy in this place, I am beyond grateful for it. And thank you for your kind thought to spread the joy of the award – that is really, really cool.

      Knowing that my work has touched you is the absolute greatest gift and I thank you for taking the time to read and comment and share. That is, quite honestly, the very best. :)

      Sending you so much love, light and peace, always, always peace,

      Allison

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  6. Peter

    Allison, you keep the truth clear and pure, so those of us who are muddling in the darkness can still hear and see the message, despite our blinkers.
    I’ve felt the fear for my own greatness and I’ve felt the fear for staying in darkness. I am shifting, despite the resisting, I am letting in the miracles.
    Thankyou so much
    Peter

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    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Gorgeous Peter, hello, hello,

      I feel so blessed to have your words and shifting, transformative energy in this space. Thank you, thank you so much for that. I can’t begin to capture how much it means to me.

      I love what you express about the ‘limbo’ of sorts – fear of the greatness, fear of the darkness. It really is like that isn’t it . . . as we learn to step into the expanse of ourselves . . . we take our own breath away, in spite of ourselves.

      The miracles are all yours, angel. It is so beautiful you are letting them come.

      Blessings and love,

      Allison

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    1. Allison Marie Post author

      You are a love! Unfortunately I am not afforded the time to fully participate, I truly loved reading your beautiful post – you are such a beautiful soul, through an through, Carolina. Big love and hugs! xxx

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  7. Darshith

    You asked LIKE IT? I seriously loved it <3 Love your thoughts and I loved many punch lines in here :) And I think this is from where you got the name GLORY BEGIN :P Love the idea and concept and everything about this post(also the fact that this post was long and I seldom read long posts) :D But anything for you ma'am :P Love you for your words ;) And I forgot to mention that your new avatar is superb and classy <3 :D Stay blessed and bless us with positive words, vibes and thoughts ;)

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    1. Allison Marie Post author

      Gorgeous and brilliant Darshith,
      You are TOO GOOD to me! I freaking adore your entire comment. I’m holding every word close to my heart. I’m all smiles all the way through. :) You are spot on . . . this is where the name Glory Begin came from and everytime I step into a bigger and bigger sense of spiritual awareness, everytime I get a little braver and a little stronger, Glory Begin reminds me that this is what we are all designed to do. To grow into our magnificence. We are such breathtaking beings aren’t we, angel?
      I am honored that you read this lengthy post, I truly am. Your time is precious and sacred and I am humbled that you would spend it with me in this space. I am more grateful than I could ever say. Anything for me?? *starry eyes* This is why I missed you, friend. You make a lady feel like a million stars. :)
      Thank you so much for your gorgeous compliments on my new avatar, superb and classy is just about the best there is, you are very kind. So very, very kind.
      I love your words to, talented guy. Thank you so much for you presence and light and all your gorgeous art. Let us do keep vibing along side one another.
      Sat Nam, love.

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      1. Darshith

        And yeah one of your podcast also mentioned that you swear and cry a lot :D Swearing I understand but why cry? :D Oh, today is my day because I got such huge love and awesome response from you <3 You look awesome doing *starry eyes* :D Yeah, Glory begin rocks ;) Yeah, vibing along side each other is a great idea :) Weekend is almost here so that's a relief ;) Glad to be in touch with you again <3 Keep smiling Allison :)

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